When Angels are No Longer Angels ..

After 7 years of studying medicine, I realized that i was tricked. whoever said that doctors are angels of mercy is wrong indeed.
I know that doctors are humans too, they have emotions and reactions. Just like anyone else, they get happy, sad , depressed , angry..but is it ok for them to be cruel? to be insensitive? they are humans, aren't they ?
I've met some of the most insensitive doctors ever during my rotation but i thought that they are the bad apples among the rest of us, but i guess its true when they say one rotten apple can ruin the whole box of apples. because, these doctors have been increasing in numbers .. like its the new fashion or something !
although i'm 90% doctor ( lol one year to graduate :P ) but i'm afraid to say that i have no respect to doctors no more.. i don't respect people who don't respect others or respect the responsibility they have. Half of the treatment is psychological, and you are treating a living thing, you're not fixing a machine or something, so why be so cruel ? so insensitive ? it's really sad ..
one of the things that upsets me the most is the way doctors use patients to teach us. i know i know i should be glad that i get to practise on real patients BUT NOT LIKE THIS !!! these people are here because they are sick, because they need to rest and not to be flipped and tossed around by us . OK, we need to learn, i couldnt agree more ! couldn't you choose the ones who are less sick ? OR ATLEAST wait for the sick ones to get a LITTLE BIT BETTER !!! imagine, this old guy, with hundreds of tubes in his mouth and nose plus millions of monitors on him .. he can hardly breathe and he's in so much pain! and just because, he's too helpless that he can't say a word, the doctor comes in, expose him and just start explaining on him ! and if u take a look at the patient, you see a sad helpless look in his face and i've seen many patients shedding tears of helplessness ... you know i shouldn't be saying stuff like that but I'M SO ANGRY !! they cant do that to people ! you cant take advantage of their need to u and do whatever you wanna do to them !! thats just cruel !

and what drives me even more crazy, how they pick on non kuwaities !! if you're indian, thats it, you're the new genuie pig and you're not allowed to say no !!! HOW RACIST IS THAT !!

when you're a doctor, everyone is the same despite their gender, nationality or social status .. the poor filthy pakistani janitor should get the same treatment as a member of the royal family ! it doesn't matter who you are outside the hospital, INSIDE, you're a patient ! and ALL patients should be treated with justice and sympathy !

alot of people laugh at me when they hear me ranting about this. they think its nothing but a medical student excitement ! they say, a few years with patients should turn me into one of them... i don't think so .. this is not excitement .. this is humanity .. and i know that i'll have stressful days when i might snap at others but i'll never be as cruel as them .. you have no idea how hard i am on my self, wayed a7asib nafsi, sometimes even too much. so i don't think i'll get that '' insensitive doctors disease '' .. i sure hope i wont ..

this is a cry out for every medical student, doctors, nurses and care givers .. ALWAYS, put your self in your patients shoes .. ALWAYS ! and treat them the way you want to be treated then.